Modelling & Dracula's Ball

So, i went shopping last night and bought a cute top for the ball tonight. I just need to go to wilson's leather and get a new leather skirt, because I can't find my other one - which of course I'll find when I buy the new one, but I guess it's not bad to have two. The shirt is cute, but I also need to head somewhere and get a strapless bra - one that acutally stays up, because I don't quite fill out the shirt. I fixed my leather jacket - it ripped horribly - and you can barely tell. I have the lace up boots and the fishnets, so I'm mostly ready to go.

I'm also pickign up an MP3 player today. I've wanted one for a while and my cd player finally died it's horrible death, so I figured it was time. I haven't CC'ed anything in a long time so I figure to keep the credit going I"ll have to put it on that. :( I hate those things. Though what am I saying, most of my outfit for the ball will be cc'ed including the damn leather skirt.
I was going to do what I usually do for the ball, elegance. But I thought it was time for a hcange and a firend of mine told me to do hard core...well I don't OWN hard core, so I'm buying it. *sigh* I hope wilson's is haivng a good sale, for the weekend. That would rock.

So, I had my photoshoot on Wednesday. It went really well. Ken (my photographer) has posted a few of the shots (4 pages worth, but the black and whites aren't up yet). Here are some of the best (I think):
http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5604.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5707.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5746.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5578.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5471.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5829.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5425.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5313.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5483.jpg

http://i49.photobucket.com/albums/f266/kennorcross/PICT5780.jpg

I have it - in writing that I can use them as I wish, so nobody worry about copyrights!

Later!

Modelling

So, I used to model. Nothing too professoinal, but I did have a professional (and internationally known) photographer. I had 2 of my pictures published (one in a magazine/one in a book) and I have 2 of my 'parts' pictures up on my photographer's website. Parts pictures are ones only of parts of the body. In this case, both were of my hands.

I was going to do a show in a few weeks, but decided not to when I went on the website. The pamphlet I received spun it as a runway walk, judged, to get your name as a model out there. The website said that it's really the 'Miss Sunburst Pagent', where you get to stand in line, walk to the center of the stage, do 2-3 poses and then say something interesting about yourself in 15-30 seconds. Yea, I don't think so. But, at a friends suggestion, I did get myself onto a site called model mayhem, where you post your pics and photographers in your area seek you out. I've gotten 6 offers already, all for paying gigs in the area... and unlike some of my shoots from the past - these are clothed. Some pose with lingere - which I'd be willing to do again - that was a TON of fun...and it's not something that can come back and stab me in the back. Nude modeling can come off as porn, instead of erotica or art. Clothed in lingere or a bathing suit, protects you a little more. And now that i'm going into HR more than massage it's really not against a code of ethics or anything either. (I know because I actually discussed this with my HR director!!!)

Men, stop reading here....women continue if you don't mind some oversharing:

On another note I've been having some weird womanly stuff going on lately. I've been gassy, bloated, migrained and crampy - I've been tossing and turning because of the discomfort sleeping (cramps mostly) but damned if I'm bleeding. Nothing, not a drop. I feel like Ishould be in my 1st or 2nd day - but the feeling doesn't go away and the blood doesn't come. I got a tubal last year, so I should be okay really - but I almost want to get a pg test for peace of mind.

GAH -

Yes, this is probably caused by stress, and I've been trying to have a good cry to get the stress out - but to no avail. Dance hasn't worked, studying, researching, a nice hot shower/bath, massage, sleep, relaxation, playing music - nothing's helped relax me. I'm not scared - like 'omg i'm pg' but I'm like 'okay can we just get this over with already?' I'm sick of feeling off, and I'm tired of it all, and I just want to bleed!!!

It's times like this I don't want to wait until I'm 36 to have a hysterectomy. However, the only medical way for a hysterectomy would be for another show of the precancer, and you know, I' think I'd rather skip that!

okay end icky rant.

laters.