New Instruments - YAY

So, Arden loaned me a recorder at EK 12th night, because I've been trying the find one. I'm having a bit of an issue closing up the bottom holes, because the the smallness (and untrainedness) of my fingers... so the D and C are coming out funny. However, I put a bid on a really nice one on Ebay, certainly the same/similar however the finger holes appear smalller -and what with small fingers and all...but super yay... I've ALMOST got Belle Qui! I can get through it with few problems without the music and those problem spots seem worse when I play with because - of course- everythign else keeps going, then I get nervous and start screwing up my air!However, I've been offered the chance to play with the branslers - when I get good enough - so i'm really pushing for good enough. Now here's the 'have a goal but don't stress about it' - everytime I screw up I can almost see woodwindy or mamagrainne cringing, and my brain is like 'see you're screwing up everybody else'... but I'm sitting alone at my computer reading the music off the screen. I'm also really amazed to watch my fingers... I know that probably sounds strange, but I remember playing the recorder when I was younger. I'd sit in my room for hours and coach (and belittle) myself until I got through my entire recorder book perfectly. I'm trying not to put that kind of pressure on myself again, but I like watching my fingers start to remember things and pretty music come out. :)It's almost like with the piano- my fingers want to remember, but my brain keeps getting in the way. I still have the new flute too... but those keys need new pads and then when I get those changed THEN I'll be able to start with that. I was getting really good until I twisted a finger trying to keep a hole closed that wouln't on it's own. Next, the insturment I've ALWAYS wanted to learn... the oboe. This will be my first reed instrument. THEN the violin - the other one I've always wanted to learn. YAY learning!!! :)